Kneeling at Her bed, drugged, filled with anxiety. And chemicals.

And so i find myself kneeling here, forced to write this blog. a shot of jager and 3 unknown pills are filling with me with trepidation and excitement.
my last real communique from my Goddess was her informing me that she had discovered my transgressions. photoes of girls, illicit conversations with my ex-girlfriend and a communication with a new girl have been enough to condemn me.
now i do not know what is in store for me this evening. i wish the chance to explain myself, but an order for me to blindfold and gag myself means that is probably goingg to be quite unlikely. i love this new direction my Goddess is taking me. She has begun to assert more control over my life. in a few weeks, she will own her own flat. i suspect this will mean that i spend more time serving her, and she will have a greater degree of autonomy to dictate my existence, free from the restrictions that domestic life entails.
i suppose that leaves little else for me to do except sign off, put on my restraints and await my fate. perhaps i will be given a chance to post again this session, to put my thoughts down on thus blog. but if not, at least i have been given the chance to air my thiughts before my torment ensues. the things i do in service to my Goddess...
signing off,
thrall

Kneeling at Her bed, drugged, filled with anxiety. And chemicals.

And so i find myself kneeling here, forced to write this blog. a shot of jager and 3 unknown pills are filling with me with trepidation and excitement.
my last real communique from my Goddess was her informing me that she had discovered my transgressions. photoes of girls, illicit conversations with my ex-girlfriend and a communication with a new girl have been enough to condemn me.
now i do not know what is in store for me this evening. i wish the chance to explain myself, but an order for me to blindfold and gag myself means that is probably goingg to be quite unlikely. i love this new direction my Goddess is taking me. She has begun to assert more control over my life. in a few weeks, she will own her own flat. i suspect this will mean that i spend more time serving her, and she will have a greater degree of autonomy to dictate my existence, free from the restrictions that domestic life entails.
i suppose that leaves little else for me to do except sign off, put on my restraints and await my fate. perhaps i will be given a chance to post again this session, to put my thoughts down on thus blog. but if not, at least i have been given the chance to air my thiughts before my torment ensues. the things i do in service to my Goddess...
signing off,
thrall

Thoughts from a Goddess

The idea of having a person entirely submit may seem somewhat alien to some people, but in our journey through life both Myself and thrall are the types of people who like to not only experience life to the full but also make it as exciting and varied as possible.  We of course lead our normal, day to day lives very successfully but we know that every week we have at least a couple of hours to escape to a fantasy that is entirely our own.

As my thrall has already told you the details of our previous play session I can only enlighten you to how I, as his Goddess feel when I can inflict that amount of pain onto a deserving slave.  We have a long history of various forms of relationship, in fact if you met my thrall I can imagine you would never even think of him as the submitting type, he is incredably charismatic, funny and intelligent.  However from the very beginning we have experimented, starting very innocently with simple bondage and chocolate sauce.

With age comes experience however and our current project which we are detailing in our blog is our most ambitious and exciting adventure yet, imagine a relationship without the boundaries of expectation or the unknown.  Our strongest asset to this relationship is that outside our bdsm roles we are the best of friends, there is no problem with trust because if my thrall breaks it he gets severely punished.  We lead our own lives and still have the time to dedicate to all of our fun.

Now of course I know you are interested in my perspective of a play session; honestly there is no greater adrenaline rush than having complete control over another person, physically I am smaller than my thrall but as he is well trained I am able to command him to do whatever I want.  This was achieved through the visual aid of me in my catsuit, which as you know my thrall greatly appreciates.  he knows that when I am wearing my catsuit he must be completely submissive.  Our initial sessions have been about establishing rules and a slight routine, this has centred around whipping.

Personally I love the feeling of a whip in my hand, my thrall also associates each strike with the words 'I love you' so pain is pleasurable, this ensures a longer play session.

We also are beginning to experiment with various substances in order to ascertain their various effects, my thrall had a particularly profound experience whilst being collared where he was bent over my bed with me on top of him yanking gently on the chain and partaking in what we term "Goddess Worship" during this, he lost consciousness for a while and actually exerperienced his first session of hypnosis.  When he awoke he was disorientated but filled with an ecstacy he could barely describe.

For me the key to a good play session is organisation, therfore I plan out the equipment I plan to use and the scenarios I intend to act out before my thrall even shows up.  Occasuonally we just play in an ad hoc way but these sessions tend to be shorter and less intense.

For the next two weeks my thrall and I are both away on holiday (separately), which gives us time to prepare for our next session which we intend to be a 24/7 experience with the use of roleplay, this will entail various techniques of interrogation and an entire day of playing our roles of Goddess and thrall.

Therefore our next post will be from an extremely tortured thrall, I am intrigued to see what he can coherantly construct after hours of play. 

Next time I will publish a few of my play scenarios and also the hypnosis script I will have used on my thrall.

Until next time.

Goddess

Xx